Escape

EscapeA while ago, our family finished reading the book City of Ember by Jeanne DuPrau.  Without spoiling the story, I think it’s safe to say that many people in the book choose to close their eyes to a major problem — one that, if left unattended, is sure to cause the destruction of the city.

Sometimes I can’t help but think I’m doing something very similar with my life.  All too often, I find myself seeking an escape from reality.  Instead of sorting out a badly-handled social encounter or trying to make sense of a difficult spiritual question, I push the unpleasant thought from my mind with homework, extracurricular activities, and entertainment.  However, instead of freeing me from the bonds imposed by the real world, I’m finding that escapism is, itself, a crippling trap.

From where I am, I don’t see a clear way out of the elaborate labyrinth of delusions and mental barriers I’ve built for myself.  My future career in academics will only lead me to a larger, more prestigious maze populated by others — just as lost as I am.  I want to care about something that matters, and I want to do something about it — but, right now, it’s hard for me to tell what is really important and what is just a waste of time.

So, instead of turning up the radio, or burying my head in a book, tomorrow, I’m going to spend some time talking to God.  Perhaps He can shed some light on the matter.

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